I've been a year older for the last 5 days. HUMPH.... No biggie until someone feels the
need to point out what I already know...... ah?? yeah?? I know that I'm 41? I don't remember all the details, but I was there :-)
So no that I am a year older, I won't say the pressures are on, but I am singing to myself, "A change gone come". Hhhmmmmm?? Should that be the theme for the next year. God is the only person that knows exactly how much change I need. I'm not yet up against a wall. But I am thinking, I'm going to have to come up with some things to help me to make it through this storm. Who knew that this part of the road was just going to lead to an open field with no close shelter. It's not hailing YET... but the drops are only getting bigger and falling harder and faster. (btw... I have no idea why I am using all the imagery this morning... lol)
So, now it's time to pray my way through this. 20 years ago, I could have told you exactly how my life was suppose to turn out... you know they typical... go to college, graduate, (somewhere in there meet my husband), get a job, get married, have a couple of kids, live happily ever after. Then I had someone stop me and tell me that was not possible to make a plan for life like that. But as I let myself get caught up in other people and just the day to day, I let my focus for anything get blurred. I've been trying to get refocused every since. I admire people that come out of the womb knowing where they are headed in life and they actually make it to their "final destination."
After a wondering conversation with a friend, I think about how I was raised, how I was sheltered, how I was pushed to nothing particular. And with that, not having the spirit to get out and get what I want. Funny, I will explore, but only if it is a sure thing. As I speak to others and tell them all the best ways to handle things in their life to move forward... but alas, I don't follow my own words. UGH!! Sometimes it's easier to speak out and not step out.
And with that said... let this be done!! I have to separate the curtain and take center stage in my own life, and not let the light shine on others. Let's get refreshed and LET'S GET FOCUSED!!
