I started this blog 10 years ago, inspired by a former coworker who decided she would kick off her 50th year of life by doing 50 things. So I figured I'd do 40, for turning 40. I may have completed 12 :-/.
Anyway. Life has had its ups and downs with a few heartbreaks thrown in. Including one thing about my life still being status quo. What you may ask? I'm still single. (whomp whomp)
So I guess I'll just play catch up as I make this final descent out of my 40's. Something I never thought about. Doing things I never imagined. So where do I start; and more importantly, where do I end? Well, I don't think I can even think of everything to tell, especially since I don't feel there is anything to tell. So things will unfold as this story is told.
So, let's just start with the now. At this moment I am completing my Master's degree to be a mental health and family counselor. Translation, two degrees at once. Often, I would question myself about my choice in not only doing two degrees but the program at all. The experience, for the most part, has been lonely. Not sure if it is because I isolate, am disconnected, or just whatever. Either way. I'm glad it is almost over.
Socially, my life is on life support. I have turned off all dating apps. I have a handful of conversations going on, but none moving from texting or talking, to being in the same space. I can't say anything else except, I don't want to give up. I don't believe that this is something I'm not meant to have. I just don't.
So Happy Birthday to me. Happy New Year.
I have come to realize that because I have had to live with such hampster wheel life, there has not been much living. And when I get tired, I just let go and wander aimlessly. So I need a change. This year's power word is Purpose. I will do everything with purpose. I will move with purpose. I will.
Cheers!! As we count down!!
